This past Thursday was one of the hardest days I have had in the mission. My companion was sick and so we couldn´t leave for a portion of the day, and I don't like feeling useless. I studied the scriptures for a long time trying to feel better but I was just kinda mad at the world. I was mad that we couldn´t find anyone to teach that wanted to listen to us, I was comparing myself to other missionaries, thinking about the success they have and I was judging myself pretty hard believing that I wasn´t a good enough missionary to help anyone. That night when I went to bed I cried for the first time in a few months. The mission is hard. It is not for the faint of heart. The thing is, a few things that happened during the week helped me realize that Heavenly Father really is watching over me
The day after, I had divisiones with another missionary and he saw that I was stressed and he gave me advice to feel better. God sometimes helps us in the form of friends. This missionary gave me suggestions about how to contact people, how to find people, how to realize my divine potential and how to look for my spiritual gifts.
I was able to watch general conference. For those of you guys that don´t know what that is, it is a group of meetings, where the leaders of the church give talks. What really struck me about it was how much they talked about our purpose here on earth. We are here to for a purpose. We have to follow the example of Jesus Christ and as we do, we will be able to ready to live in his presence.
Elder Anguita accidentally smaked me in the face with a Book of Mormon. I couldn´t see for a day, but it made me realize how cool it is to have a body that helps me do things.
I am really trying to be obedient and follow all of the mission rules and every meeting we have as missionaries, Hermana Gwilliam does a game where she asks us if we made our beds, cleaned things, all that stuff. If you answer no, you have to sit down. I was the last one standing and I won a bag of food. It was great!
The theme of zone conference was bautismo. I really loved all the things that were taught, and my testimony was strengthened about how nessecary it is that we are baptized so we can live with Heavenly Father again.
I was able to go to the temple, my favorite place in the world, and help complete some temple work and feel the spirit. I was also able to help with a few sealing sessions, and we helped seal more than 30 families together!
To sum up everything, sometimes in life we feel let down and sad and useless, but really, Heavenly Father is always here for us. He loves us. Just because we pass through sad times, it doesn´t mean he hates us, or has forgotten about us, he just wants to allow us to learn something. If we are loyal and follow him even when it is rough, we will be able to feel peace. I can testify of that. It really helped me this week
I love all you guys. The gospel is true. Don´t take it for granted
Have a good week!